Appreciate life as it is!!

Man ive been such a debby downer the past 2 weeks its just been depressing! what happened to the happy cassie?!?! I'll tell you what happened! I let my circumstances in the world run my emotions rather than believing God for all that He can do. I have a house and food in my fridge and an AMAZING husband who takes such good care of me and this beautiful baby girl in my belly that will be here soon, so why am i so hung up on the bad stuff? I usually handle stress pretty well but when everything started to fall apart at once i think i went into overload haha When my car broke down and joshs truck broke down and we lost all sense of independence, having to rely on family to go anywhere just really hit me hard. Not being able to just go where ever, whenever i want is not the happiest thought. Not that i ever really went many places when I had a car haha but just the thought of having it here was enough security, but now any time i want to go grocery shopping, to church, any time i need to get something to prepare for ellies arrival or anything along those lines I have to rely on some one else to get me there and hassle them. Ive always been extremely independent and having both vehicles break and spending every last penny we have on trying to fix the truck just to find out its too far gone really hit hard not to mention all the faith and prayer i put into getting that truck running, watching day by day go by and my poor husband out there in the heat working his heart out from morning till night can really tear a person down. Then our cell phone bill comes up and as i said before every last penny was put into the truck so i now have no communication with the outside world other than my dear computer. 
  So I'm going to be honest, I lost a lot of faith when i was sooo sure that me laying hands and praying over that truck would work and it didnt. Then as most of you know i got sick and my ears got plugged so it was extremely hard to hear anything and I had to read everyones lips for the most part until they unpopped last night but once again for 2 weeks straight i prayed and prayed it'd go away and once again I kept looking at my circumstances in the world and getting more discouraged. BUT GOD!! but God is forgiving and is patient while He knows I have growing and learning to do, He continues to take care of my little family although I complain and get restless and upset over everything thats going on around me. It truly has been a struggle to stay happy and I just woke up this morning wondering why I would let such silly things bother me, KNOWING my God is waaay bigger than that! If were going through something HE WILL pull us through and get us through this so why would I ever worry about it?? I'm just glad i wasnt too far gone to realize all this, i mean i can stop looking at the no car situation as me losing independence and more as getting closer to family and allowing them to bless us, hoping that some day we'll be able to bless them 10 times as much =) and josh not having much work but getting some here and there has been nice to have him around, it would be muuuch worse without a vehicle or a phone stuck at home 9 months pregnant if I didnt have my best friend to talk to and spend time with every day. 
I really am shocked at how discouraged i let myself get, forgetting how awesome of a God i serve, the one who sent His only son to DIE on the cross for ME! the one who brought josh into my life, the one who gave me the dream telling me that everything was ok, i would get pregnant with a baby girl and to name her luella rose but call her ellie (come to find out ellie was joshs grandmas nickname!) the one who provides every need we have, we may not be rich but we are NEVER hungry and never cold, the one who has ALL the answers even when i dont even realize i have a question. I could go on forever and ever but I guess i really just needed to write this all out because ive just been snippy and mean and cranky lately and there are NO excuses for that kind of behavior so this is my appology to every one reading this. Thank you for being a part of my life and please forgive my selfish acts 
THE HAPPY CASSIE IS BACK =D