Ellie loves her blanky!!

Ellies play date =D

this is ellie and eli (elis 3 months older)

REEEACH!

sooo my smart baby girl reached for ger toy and grabbed it and held onto it aaall by herself! im so proud of her shes so smart =D 8 weeks old tomorrow!

Walk with cousins =D

Ellie loves the outdoors! and i love that she has so many cousins around her age! this was a couple weeks ago ive been procrastinating =X

Water Safari, Family Reunion anddd Camping!

Ellie was soooo good she LOVED camping, mezmorized by the tress and so smiley as always =) but heres some updated pictures

goodnght

crazy dreams!

So...to those of you who've been following and read my blog from the beginning, you know that I had a dream after trying for a while to get pregnant with Ellie, that I was going to get pregnant with a baby girl and what to name her etc...then a month later I found out I was pregnant......Well, with that said I now don't brush dreams off just because I "want it so bad" yadda yadda. I'll write out the dream i had a few days ago but this one wasn't as straight foward as the one about Ellie so it could be nothing =)

I was with my mom in her van with Ellie in the back seat and driving in front of us was my brother, hubby and our baby boy Joshua (no we don't have a baby other than ellie for right now lol) Anyways oddly my mom decided to drive over the car josh ty and ellie were in like how monster trucks can just drive over cars lol. Anywho, I freaked out and got mad at my mom because she just ran over the car that my son was in (didnt crush the car) and strangely enough his car seat was attatched to the front bumoper of the car (probably because my brother was driving, so with him driving thats equivalent to him being strapped to the front of the car lol) anyways we pulled over and then ellie ended up waking me up to eat and i looked for Joshua to check on him (i was still half asleep) until i realized I had no son LOL

    When I fell back to sleep after feeding Ellie I had ANOTHER dream.....I went into my dr's office and the nurse came in saying how important it was NOT to get pregnant so soon and that my body could not handle it etc. etc. but in my dream I was scared and upset because I knew I was already pregnant and as I left I saw one of my cousins who told me she was there to get rid of an infection then gonna start trying for another baby so our babies will be close in age (obviously she knew i was pregnant in this dream)

THEN THE NEXT DAY I HAD ANOTHER DREAM I was in the same dr's office in labor and josh told me he could see our sons head and I said good one more push and the butt will be out LOL. Then I was holding my baby boy and said "Hes bigger than his sister and I pushed him out just fine" t(as most of you know I had to have a csection cause ellie got stuck behind my pelvic bone and was not coming out due to being 9 1/2 lbs)


Sooooooooo I'm not sure where in the world these dreams came from, if my hormones are just crazy still or dropping too quickly or what not but I decided to share them =) I've been nauseous every day since last week, also tired (but i hear that comes with being a mom) and a few other weird things but it could be from sleepless nights and stressful days. But mannnn would that be crazy to be pregnant again!! I'm not so sure how I'd feel about that, probably worried about another cesction and how my body would handle the stress but that'd probably be my biggest fear. Oh well just felt like sharing =)

Just a mom

does anyone else feel like they lost the "romance"?? I sure do! I feel like all i am is ellies mom lately, I've even dressed up cute I do my hair and make up and what not. It just seems like all I do is feed, change diapers, clean the house and MAYBE get a quick shower in while ellie sits in her swing in the bathroom. I'm not sure if me becoming mommy has altered friends, family and even hubbys view of me, but it seems like i can only be mom, not sexy wife, or best friend to talk to, or anything worth impressing. I know i chose this and I love my baby girl sooo much but I would love to feel like more than just mommy right now and i just dont see that happening

There are a few words that I don't know the meaning to anymore....sleep, shower, hot meal etc...catch my drift? although the word tired and I have become very close. I thought I was getting used to having no sleep but I'm pretty sure my body was just accumulating all the sleepless nights just to have it all crash on me now. My eyes almost don't want to stay open through out the whole day and yes I try to nap when she naps but for some reason her naps are getting shorter and shorter while my house gets messier and messier! Not to mention its rained the past couple days and stupid me didn't have time to do laundry while it was nice all weekend so i am officially panty-less! (we need a converter thing for our dryer because the plus is 2 prong and the dryer is 3 or whatever) All this tiredness may be why my stomach has been so off lately, my appetite has just got up and walked out on me and when I try to eat it seems like food wants to come right back up as well. I guess today is my day to throw a pity party and have a vent post =P.
  On the plus side, joshs parents called and are taking us to dinner tonight woohooo, pumped a bottle changed ellie 4 TIMES she'll only poop in a clean diaper, even if that means changing her 3 times in a row lol and got everything ready soooo off to dinner i go now, heres to hoping the car ride puts her into a deep sleep so we enjoy our meal =D

Pregnant Dance 38 weeks

soo this COULD be extremely embarrassing but i could care less what people think i had fun!! LOL

the many faces of ellie

Luellas first roll from belly to back!! 6 weeks and 2 days old

my baby girl hates tummy time for some reason so she was very determined to learn how to roll and today she did =D and i got it on camera!! she rolled 3 times for me!!! as you can tell from the video i was overly excited!

6 weeks postpartum!